The Great Pretender

I came back to the office after four days of being away -- two days off and two days absent. And I realized one thing: I really am a great pretender. I faked my way through the day, making it seem to people who aren't in the know (really, there's only one person at work … Continue reading The Great Pretender

Barely Holding On But will Continue Pushing Through

Do you ever wish that you could be someone (or something) else other than yourself? Right now, I wish that I was a cat. I'm outside, smoking my fucking lungs out (as I always do when things get so rough), looking at our cats, realizing how serene they look; how they seem to be so … Continue reading Barely Holding On But will Continue Pushing Through

When Anxiety Hits You Hard

Last night was one of the worst anxiety attacks that I've ever had in my life. I couldn't function right; I couldn't even think straight. I wanted to just disappear from the face of the Earth and never look back. I wanted to just get it over with; be done with everything and leave and … Continue reading When Anxiety Hits You Hard

End the Stigma, Please

Today (or yesterday as it’s past midnight already), Facebook exploded after Joey de Leon (a famous Filipino celebrity) made comments about how depression is not really a disability or illness, and people should not sympathize with those who have it or are going through it. According to him, it’s just something that these people make … Continue reading End the Stigma, Please

Trying to Tune Everything Out

When you feel all fucked up in the head and nobody understands—nobody’s trying to understand, that’s when you know that you’re really fucked. I have been suffering from anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember. At this point, I don’t even know what caused it, or if there’s even a reason why … Continue reading Trying to Tune Everything Out